It's been a few years that i am a devotee of the Goddess, with ups and downs, because of life. Kids, health, finances, world's messiness.. All of these (and more) are valid reasons to take a step off. It happened to me several times, that during weeks or months I was not able to be fully devoted to Her.
A few month ago I became a Torchbearer and I realized I had less and less time for this charge; in fact I didn't know how to make space in my life to start officially the Sanctuary of Hekate Chtonia and take care of the community.
If you know me a bit, you probably already know that my adhd and other medical crap are the main reasons behind that.
Now to the main point of this post : I was inconsciently drifting away further from Her, but this time... She didn't let me.
"Now is the time to stop . Clean my altar and give me offerings. I am the keeper of your keys, and if you want my help, you'll have to work for it."
It occurs that I'm currently trying to sell my appartment and buying a new house, but there's non-stop issues in the process , And I realized what may be blocking this, is the fact that I didn't do enough for Her.
So, this deipnon has been a new push to me, on a practical and mundane level but also in my devotional work. I trust Her and she helps me trust myself.
Does this situation already happened to you ?
Laurie Bianciotto, CoH Torchbearer
Hello! Something like this happened to me too. I am currently pursuing a priesthood but sometimes I feel like I don't have enough time for so many things to do in a day, but she always finds a way to tell me that she is there and encourages me. Maybe one is too self-critical and that is not right either. A fraternal greeting from Chile.
Hi Laurie! You are not alone. I am pretty sure something similar happened (and will happen again) to everyone.
Life happens and we can just do our best to keep up with it. A good friend of mine just remind me thet we can do anything but not everything at the same moment. Devotion should not be a burden, but something helping you. When everything feels "too much" you just need to take a break and clear your mind. My crisis lasted years 😅... so are actually doing great in my opinion!
Are you in France too? I know we are not in the same area but well, should you need a little help with the Sanctuary of Hekate Chtonia…
Okay, there goes my epithet 😅 😘💜 I wish you all the best for your sanctuary of Hekate Chthonia 🙌💜✨may Hekate bless you and guide you on your beautiful choice and path 💜
Thank you so much for sharing! I've also been struggling this year due to selling my previous house and buying the new one. It's been a mess, some people took advantage of my family and lost a lot of money, so suffice it to say, it hasn't been easy. She has been my pillar during these times, even though I haven't been very active. I have taken the time to heal and rest, and now that I'm feeling much better I have felt the absolute NEED of taking care of my altar and my daily devotions and practice, and since I started doing so, I can say my mental health has improved.
I would tell you not to be afraid…